I am sorry, I need to rant. I have a boatload of homework and I should be working on the multiple projects and crap that I have but screw it I NEED TO VENT.
I am not happy. I don't like not being considered 'pretty' by society's standards. I don't have the long glamorous hair you would see in a shampoo commercial, nor am I blonde, nor do I have massive cleavage. And I don't expose my nonexistent cleavage. My teeth are not the straightest, whitest teeth you've ever seen. But you're not looking at a hunchback sweetheart!
I have multiple friends that are in photo. They occasionally say, 'oh hey I need people to take pics of for my photo project' or some crap like that on facebook, and I'll be like 'sure, call me if you need me.' No call, no comment. Like I said nothing at all about it. BUT. I. DID. Wonder why I never got a call?
None of this helps my nonexistent self esteem. And you know what also doesn't help? I positively affirm people. I do it all the time. I can think of three times I did it today. I affirm people because it comes naturally to me, and I love being positively affirmed. I crave it. I affirm my cat by accident, because it's so natural. And I too often don't receive it, too often I ask 'how was your day' and they don't ask me.
I'm tired. I'm angry. And I need to get crap done. But GOD FORBID things come to me easy. I don't feel good at anything. Anything at all.
You've just experienced a Cailin vent, email me if you need counseling because of this.
Over and out.
Cailin
P.S.
Love you guys...
I am not happy. I don't like not being considered 'pretty' by society's standards. I don't have the long glamorous hair you would see in a shampoo commercial, nor am I blonde, nor do I have massive cleavage. And I don't expose my nonexistent cleavage. My teeth are not the straightest, whitest teeth you've ever seen. But you're not looking at a hunchback sweetheart!
I have multiple friends that are in photo. They occasionally say, 'oh hey I need people to take pics of for my photo project' or some crap like that on facebook, and I'll be like 'sure, call me if you need me.' No call, no comment. Like I said nothing at all about it. BUT. I. DID. Wonder why I never got a call?
None of this helps my nonexistent self esteem. And you know what also doesn't help? I positively affirm people. I do it all the time. I can think of three times I did it today. I affirm people because it comes naturally to me, and I love being positively affirmed. I crave it. I affirm my cat by accident, because it's so natural. And I too often don't receive it, too often I ask 'how was your day' and they don't ask me.
I'm tired. I'm angry. And I need to get crap done. But GOD FORBID things come to me easy. I don't feel good at anything. Anything at all.
You've just experienced a Cailin vent, email me if you need counseling because of this.
Over and out.
Cailin
P.S.
Love you guys...
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